When I was younger if I ever found myself kissing someone it was by accident or by some sub-conscious desire that never actually hit my conscious brain before it happened. As I grew older the ability to ask someone out has never been a skill I possess. Not because I am shy (i was when I was young) but because I go through agonies of trying to discern who they are and from what information I can garner telling myself what bad experience they will have with me and how much I am likely to hurt them.
I have a feeling it is all to do with falling in love and how difficult it is for me to give myself the space to allow that to happen.
#men
#women